Content to Wait

Journal entry dated May 1st, 2011.

As I lean forward, bowing my head and resting it on my folded hands, letting the tears surface, my heart-shaped watch necklace falls forward, swinging back and forth like a pendulum. It doesn’t always keep time — what is time, anyway, in the grand scheme of things? — but the irregular ticking reminds me that this abstract and elusive concept called time is indeed passing. So I wait in the stillness.

Whether I wait for something or for nothing, I do not know. My life is not mine to live; my plans are not mine to make. So I wait.

I am not praying; no audible words escape my lips, and even my mind produces no logical thought. I am merely existing in a state of surrender, outside the dimension of time and detached from the concern of its imposing demands. It passes, but I have no anxious thought, for His timing alone is perfect. Whether I wait for one minute or for a thousand years, His will will come through.

It always does. So I’m content to wait.

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